Insomnia

Sometimes lately if I stay up too late I seem to miss my window of opportunity to fall asleep. When I finally manage to tear myself away from whatever I was doing and go to bed, I just end up laying in bed with my mind racing.

What does it mean to be a great photographer? Do I have what it takes? That reminds me, I am way behind on our family photography projects. Hopefully I can get caught up before spring when I start booking clients again. Why did I even start this business when I already have an almost full-time job and a toddler? What will I miss out on? Will I regret this someday? Don't forget to get lemons at the store tomorrow. . .

This all started from reading Matthew Jordan Smith's blog tonight, which is fascinating and very insightful. It really got me thinking about how I work and how I can take this to a new level, but also the why. What draws me to photography so strongly? Why do I have to do this when there is so much else to do? I don't have all the answers yet, but I feel like photography is part of my journey and eventually I'll figure it out.

Meanwhile, I'll keep documenting and never lose sight of what is most important: